Depression

What do you do when you're tired of everything around you?
When you're sick of everything being the same?
What does one do to pull out of darkness?

Hurt.
Pain.
Sadness.

Is it all coming back to me again?

Seeing him.
Seeing her.
Together.
Love.
More love.
The strong bond.

It makes me feel tiny.
I feel hallow inside as if everything has sucked out of me and I'm left with a fragile shell.
One touch will shatter me into tiny pieces of dust.
Where will I go now?
Will I flow into the galaxy? To the Milkyway?
I am emptied of emotions.

I can't get myself high in social settings.
I can't get my mind straight.
I'm falling in the pitch of darkness.

Loosing my sight.
Loosing my feelings.
Loosing sanity.
Loosing all senses.

Help. Silently crying for help.

How to rejuvenate?
How to let go?
Where is that textbook on life?