To tell the truth, I don't really want to move. I'm the type of person who, once settled, does not like to move about. Fear of the loss of security? Perhaps. Fear of the loss friendship? Perhaps. Dislike of packing and the unpacking? Yes. Dislike having to readjust to a new environment?

So I ask, why move?

And you say, why live in an atmosphere where I feel like I need to avoid someone each day and is constantly reminded of the hostile way she treated me? I don't want to not speak to her nor do I want to speak to her, so I choose to ignore her existence. The act of ignoring subsequently turns into the act of avoiding. When I open the door now, I have to imagine whether or not she'll be within my sight, and if so, how should I react? With a peaceful face, an angry face, a resentful face, a jolly face, or a stoic face? I don't want to drain my energy thinking all this useless crap. I need to read, study, learn, and really engage in the last two quarters of my college years.

No doubt that I'll miss Helen. I don't know which side she is on, but she will always be my friend. As to Linda...I don't think I'm her anyone. What's most important to her is love because she believes that love will transform into family and that will be the closest thing for her. She just kind of have the rest of the world behind her.

Leave in Spring or leave now?? If I can stand Spring, then why not stay till the end? So pretty much, leave now or never.

But I'm frustrated by the fact that she has this transparent authority over here just because she is the daughter of the apt owner.

Am I just suffering the repercussions of a capitalistic society in which the laborer is always at a disadvantage when compared to the rich.